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al-uk
05-14-2005, 4:30 PM
Something serious
I have two things to whose i'd like to hear your opinion about:
1. Since facesitting is a fetish we don't appartain to ppl with "normal" sexual fantasies. Has it ever caused you any problems, for example when you were young?
I am 22 and everyday i have to face that problem and i know that i can't talk to anyone about this, and sometimes it is very hard.
It may seem funny, but at the sight of nice butts in tight jeans i just can't hold myself from staring at them. Even with the ladies from my class, which are very cute i have this problem. In my fantasies i am the born slave but this doesnt really fit in the real world.
I'd like to hear about experiences that you made in the past and maybe i can take some conclusions about how to handle it. Please take the time!
2. Does anyone know any possible origins of how this fetish develops?
I am particularly interested in the psycological aspect of it. Has is anything to do with the youth or how you've been brought up?
When did you realice to have this fetish?

Lucullo




headpop
Senior Member


It's a normal fantasy, but like everything else; when you obsess about it you become slave to it. And you know this more than anyone else does. The biggest thing for me about it was the masturbation. Because it's such a powerful fantasy you don't want anybody else to know about it. Even some grown men you see on this board are quite jealous about it, and particular in their wants and tastes. One time when I was younger my father walked in on me, and it was so embarassing that I hopped on my motorcycle and took off on a rainy wet night down windey roads at dangerous speeds. Not even caring if I got in a wreck. I was just so embarassed. It's amazing how personal a thing it is. And I remember reading the speedometer thru wet, non-caring stare, and seeing speeds of 120 mph.. not fast by today's standards but it was 40 mph road, and raining.. Napoleon Dynamite.

Also there's the fetish aspect to it. Before the web, I didn't even know what a fetish was. And you see a lot of other fetishes that are about as sexy to you as your fetish is to them (as in being not). And you wonder about your sexuality.. Not no casual thing.

Wrestling when I was a kid never really got me into this fetish. There was a big girl named Tina (one of my sister's friends) who used to always beat me up. And it never really caught onto the face sitting thing. What got me fascinated with that was that movie "pretty poison" (not the newer one but the older one). Especially the way she seemed to come across to the guy after she killed the other guy.. like she was so innocent (she just murdered a guy! And sat on him!) That's what got me into it.. What was under that skirt of her's. How she could have killed that guy laying on the lake's shoreline. Sex grew as a fascination in feminine monstrosity. In sexual monstrosity. A death aspect to pleasure, only for a woman instead of a man. I see movies about men raping women and it does nothing for me. But I hear about women doing the same things to men and it's really really sexy..

Also, the obsession, if you don't control it, can make you ill.. mentally. Obsessive compulsive disorder, depression, schizo-effective disorder, can all interfere with the "normal" drives of your life. Especially the masturbation. Because you become like a "secret agent" of your sexual fantasy. And all it takes is that door opening and someone walking in to make you lose everything.. with the level of lucrative appeal there is an equal and opposite level of embarassment at being misunderstood. So don't take yourself too seriously..





Faceseat
Make my face a pancake


I have had this fetish since I was about 8 years old. If it wasnt wreslting , it was darring someone. Yes, I understand it can be hard at times to talk about it in person. Even the phone can be difficult as well, but once you break the ice and get it out in the open, its total pleasure from there! There is nothing wrong with our fetish. Enjoy every sitting last its your last one!


youngsta
Junior Member

ahh yes this fun topic again.

When i was a wee lad and just learning to jack off, i fantasized about normal shit -- vaginal / anal intercourse, blow jobs, etc etc. Most of the time the woman was on top but it was still perfectly 'normal' fantasy by society's standards.

I don't know when it changed, or how fast -- i think i was around 16 or 17 when i started wackin off to women sitting on my face. This was about the same time i was discovering the wonderful world of internet porn. The only way I could think of describing my fantasy was "facesitting" so i typed it into a search engine -- and holy fuckballs!!! that was all she wrote.

For the last 5 or 6 years, the ONLY thing i have masturbated to is facesitting. I've tried masturbating to other things and it just doesn't do it for me -- i find that I cum about twice as hard when i'm thinking about facesitting. (Sorry if this is too much info for some of you

My porn collection on my computer is burried about 10 folders deep in my system files, with all kinds of strange names to make it look like 'official' windows files or something. And i live alone.

*just rambling now, stop me any time*

Sometimes I wonder if the fact that i masturbate to facesitting every time changes my personality -- I have this problem with 'blushing' -- my face gets red a lot when i talk to people. there are many other things about my personality too, that i wonder about; maybe they have arisen from this sense of secretivity that i have from many years of hiding this fetish. Or maybe i'm just paranoid and a bit too self-conscious. lol.

I keep thinking the desire will go away slowly, as i get older, but as the years go by I am starting to realize it's not going anywhere. I could; 1) keep this fantasy a secret for life, hide it from my future wife,. . . . . cursing myself to eternal frustration and probably an affair with a dominatrix, . . . . or 2) be open with all future girlfriends / wife, risking embarrasment and a crushing breakup, or possibly finding a woman open enough to except it and indulge me.

It's a hard one. I am sure this fantasy we all share is very normal -- we just take it to a new level here on this forum and by collecting pictures and videos of it. I think a large percentage of the male population probably would like a nice round ass on their face, they just never care to research it on the web for whatever reason.




NOW -- as for early childhood development and the possible roots of our fetish, I can only give my theory: I believe this desire is hereditary. I was brought up in a perfectly normal household, no weird shit going on when i was a kid, no weird relationships with parents or aunts or uncles or anything. I think the desire to be dominated sexually is hereditary -- and does not necessarily reflect our personality either. In my 'real life'. . . . i tend to be a somewhat dominant person. I like to be in control of situations and definitely in control of my business. But when it comes to sex and sexuality, i am always on the bottom.

You may ask, "If it is hereditary, why do different people have different submissive fetishes?" (i.e. bondage, whipping, spanking, CBT, etc etc). . . ?
I think it is much like drug addiction. Addiction is a gene -- it is something you are born with. But depending on the structure of the rest of your brain, each person with this addiction gene may become addicted to a different drug. For some people, heroin is the key to unlock their happy-receptors. For others it is cocaine. Both of these people have the same addiction gene, but the chemical structures of their brain differ in a way that makes them react differently to different chemicals. Now apply this to the submissive urge, and our "subgenre" so-to-speak, of facesitting.

I might be talking out of my ass, but that's my little theory. Take it or leave it.

Personally, I think I will need to find a woman who is very accepting and will indulge my fetish, as i don't think it's going anywhere.

Hope somebody can relate to all that.

al-uk
05-14-2005, 4:31 PM
Lucullo
Senior Member

//I keep thinking the desire will go away slowly, as i get older, but as the years go by I am starting to realize it's not going anywhere. I could; 1) keep this fantasy a secret for life, hide it from my future wife,. . . . . cursing myself to eternal frustration and probably an affair with a dominatrix, . . . . or 2) be open with all future girlfriends / wife, risking embarrasment and a crushing breakup, or possibly finding a woman open enough to except it and indulge me.

- my gf lives 507 km away from me and so, when i see her, we stay together for about 2 weeks. She doesn't know about my fetish, just sometimes i can manage it to make her sit at least on my chest. The main problem is, that we have normal sex and after 5-7 days i need to masturbate by thinking of facesitting. I couldnt imagine to live permanetly with her just for this reason. I also need my archieves, they represent somehow my secret place where i can enjoy my fantasies.

I think i started my fetish at the age of 8, i can just remeber that i was strangely attracted of butt, mainly in leather. It happened more than once that i touched unknown ladies just because of that and all they said was: oh, he's so cute... good old times.

At the age of about 12 i was very skilled in convincing girls to wrestle with me, but, of ocurse, i had no idea of what was going on with me.

Do your friends know about your fetish, how do you tell it to your girl?

Lucullo


headpop
Senior Member

I remember in grade school this really pretty teacher I had with short short hair and who wore this really pretty white light dress once. She'd dismiss everybody and I'd stay behind and bug her. Then once I hid under her skirt. She just went "hey!" pulled me out and laughed. She was one of the sweetest teachers I can remember.

And I remember too exactly what you're talking about. Once I locked my girlfriend out of my dormroom and masturbated. It *is* like an affair..


gaffer2001
Junior Member

I got sat on regularly by my next door neighbour. I blame her for the fact that , I don just get off on a woman sitting astride me wherever on the body it is, but I actually feel real comfortable.
Its no sin, I dont think I know any bloke that dosen't like a woman on top. Its simple physics a woman on top can position herself for a mutlitude of pleasure...long may it reign

al-uk
05-14-2005, 4:34 PM
Hi Lucillo,

Its good to think about these things-- I hope you don't mind but I thought if I copied your thread to the 'story' board it wont get lost below all the pic posting/site advertising posts. To many interesting posts vanish in a couple of days...

Anyway in answer to your first question - I got a girl to facesit me when I quite young- around 6-8 years old. We both enjoyed it, but even then I felt it was not something to talk about in company- we kept it secret. When I was in my early/midteens I asked a number of girls to facesit me but they either laughed at me, said they didnt get it or gave me the impression I was a bit weird. I suspect I was a bit unlucky in choice of girls but eventually I felt quite ashamed of wanting to be facesat and kept it to myself for several years. It wasn't until I was 18 or 19 that I met several girls who were interested in all sorts of fetish things and were certainly prepared to facesit me, although I suspect most were not really turned on by it. At this time I started dating a fairly normal girl who was prepared to do all sorts of foreplay, but drew the line at sexual intercourse. She was quite happy to wank me, and gradually I introduced the idea of her sitting on my face-- so eventually at the end of every session.. it finished up with her sitting on my face and wanking me-- as sort of an alternative for penetrative sex. When you think about it is the perfect position for this act. Later I introduced the idea of wrestling and bondage as a prelude to the facesitting and most of the time it she was happy to oblige.

I'm not sure whether you can try this out with your girlfriend, but you could try suggesting it as an alternative... despite my bad early experiences I think lots of girls have no problem with it, but suspect very few really enjoy it.

Your 2nd question has been discussed many times on this board ... lots of guys seem to be introduced to it in late teens.. but many, like me (and I suspect you) were born with this disposition. Ive tried to think back as far into my childhood as I can -- and I think the fetish was there as early as I can remember. I remember enjoying a kids game in which girls sat on boys chests/stomachs, but I think it was there even before this. At first it was an attraction to girls bottoms, skirts and knickers.. initially I just felt the urge to push my face into a girls bottom, or put my head up her skirt, but eventually I realised the attraction of the girl sitting on my face-- especially once I experienced it with a girl who lived a few doors away at the age of 6.

I think another psychological aspect which developed when I was in my early teens was the feeling that girls were superior to boys -- (in my confused way I think it started because I was very attracted to girls and repulsed by guys) and gradually I rationalised facesitting and wanking the male as a way that girls could symbolically demonstrate their superiority.. .. I just loved the idea of guys being wrestled into submission, facesat and wanked.

Also I suspect the fact that me first real girlfriend regularly sat on my face and wanked me, as a substitute for normal sex, might have reinforced the fetish. I'm now in my late 50s and while I enjoy normal sex, facesitting is still the biggest turn-on for me... so if you are like me I suspect you will not grow out of it.

Anyway I hope this helps you...