Reply to Equidum (re: Right Age Post) ...

[Jadis]

I believe that "Jadis" is a French word, which could be translated by the old English expression "in the olden time" ..... I've been wondering why You chose that name, Madame .... Perhaps , because, "in the olden time", there were slaves and Mistresses, but also Masters ! ..... ???

Mmm a long story that I'll try to make somewhat brief :) Years back, when I first came on line (over eleven years ago I believe) ... I wanted to find a name that suited both My personality, My nature and My uniqueness. For some truly unknown reason - the name "Jadis" came to mind as I was logging in one night: partially because it was the White Witch in the Chronicals of Narnia - and I have a rather fondness for all things powerful (obviously) ... and of course she was a very strong female figure with that seductive yet wicked side to her (more so than probably needed, but it was enough to get me thinking). And, to me - the name always just seemed to suit very well ... that here was a sort of regal/imperial aspect that seemed to settle beneath My skin. Not to mention that, as the years went on - the name took on a bit of a life of it's own and adapted to the changes in My real life nearly so much as anything online ... to the point where I associate with it.

And why "DARK" domination ? Does this "dark" caracterize the colour of Your skin , or that of Your soul ?

As kenrug would put it ... I'm his "gothic" friend. I tend to have a fastination for things "dark": vampires, dungeons, fantasy and the like. My soul? Well I'd hope my soul is worth more than it's color :) And if I were to be known for anything - it'd be more than a few bits and pieces of My life. It'd be My character I hope: was I a good Mother, a good Friend, a good Lover, good Mistress, good Teacher? Was I more than the sum of My parts. But I can't help that I've got that bit of a twisted side to Me ... besides (-winks at kenrug-) I look really good dark. As for My skin? Quite the contrary ... I'm very naturally pale.

An why this a la Marquis de Sade quotation under Your signature ???

Honestly? Because I liked it (I enjoy teasing, metal games and manipulations - torment ... the kind that goes deeper than skin, and that seemed to fit it rather well). But I have to admit that My curiosity with BDSM began about the same time I started reading some of his material (a friend had given it to me). Of course, I relate to a stronger female much better ... and some of it well - just didn't suit Me - but it was enough that I started reading, studying, searching and learning. Of course My thoughts and ideals aren't always mainstream ... and I don't expect people to agree: but there in lies the respect.

I hope that answered some of your questions for you ;) Sometimes I'm a big mystery and sometimes ... it's not so hard to figure out. Thank you for your interest ...

xox Jadis

[crudwell]

There was this beautiful Lady called Jadis
who eleven years ago was just an apprentice
but loggin on one night, possessed by a Wiccan might
transformed this Jadis to Domina ain't that rite ???

Lady Jadis met a pony called Equidum....
He held her fancy and he loved her bum...
Feeding him some apples and sugarcubes
the little pony peeked in between to check her boobs
alls well with the pony, the lady and a keg of rum....




:et :rasta:

[Jadis]

There was this beautiful Lady called Jadis
who eleven years ago was just an apprentice
but loggin on one night, possessed by a Wiccan might
transformed this Jadis to Domina ain't that rite ???

Lady Jadis met a pony called Equidum....
He held her fancy and he loved her bum...
Feeding him some apples and sugarcubes
the little pony peeked in between to check her boobs
alls well with the pony, the lady and a keg of rum....




:et :rasta:

I'm going to bottle you up and keep you -lol- that was the best giggle I've had all week ... and I appreciate it!

:rofl:

I'm going to have to save that one hehe

[equidum]

Madame,

I am both enchanted and honored by Your thorough and still intriguing reply .... And I am also absolutely despaired, as I cannot write at the moment : I am sailing until next monday, and not in a position to write more than a few words .... I will on Monday

Please, excuse my unavailability, and, as You did not turn down my previous attempt, I hope You will, again, allow me to respectfuly kiss Your lovely feet

Your French, intrigued, admirer

Equidum ( Seconding Your appreciation of Crudwell's poetry ...:-)

[crudwell]

I'm going to bottle you up and keep you -lol- that was the best giggle I've had all week ... and I appreciate it!

:rofl:

I'm going to have to save that one hehe


Hmmm to be bottled up with your pheromones.... thats heaven ...

Glad you enjoyed it.... :bugeyes:

[equidum]

Bonjour, belle Jadis,


And thanks again for Your admirable mail ... Which still leaves me with even more unanswered questions ....

Basically, I find it imposible to reconcile the "divin marquis' " destructive thougths, ( as per you motto under You signature ) and Your eminently feminine personality ... I think a Woman can be wicked, cruel, < although very seldom, I think >, but She is not, She is never destructive ! That's one more point of superiority versus Her male companion ! She bears life, She shapes humanity, She IS the future under construction .... SHE CANNOT BE DESTRUCTIVE !!!

Males are, only too often, and the World so far was built, by men, by systematically destroying what was existing before .... This will be the main change when women take over and rule this world .... They will not destroy men, for instance ! At least, I hope so ..... Perhaps, Equidum will no longer be considered as a man, but as a donkey, and everybody will applaud : Crudwell will write a poem, and You'll have a fine horse to go riding with Kenrug in Washington mountains ... :-) . When women take over, You will not destroy anything, You will just give everybody and everything a new place..... Nothing in common with Sade's destructive psychology !!!!

HHmmmmm..... I feel I'm going a bit too far again, belle Maitresse .... How could I redeem myself ? I'm not familiar with the "chronicles of Narnia", so I can't build on that, which, I think, would have provided me with a more consensual thema ... I've nothing against gothic, but, again I am a deep ignorant in this area ....

So my last hope to avoid Your rightful wrath is to fall on both knees, and devoutly kiss Your lovely feet, pledging to be for ever, if so You wish

Your humble French slave

Equidum

[crudwell]

Nice stuff Equidum... I am not a good poet ... but its a nice book I could write.... about the poet, the donkey, the Mistress and a barrel of Rum....

[equidum]

Hi, Crudwell

Thks for your nice appreciation! I disagree with you as regards your poetry talents, and wish that you would have just the same as a book-writer!!

I'd love to read that book, Crudwell ! A great story where, I'm sure, the unfortunate donkey would painfully carry a sensual Mistress, while You would serve mugs of rhum... But.... where from the rhum ? There are definitely two kinds : The "French" one from the Antilles, and the Bacardi type from Cuba, St Domingo .... As a French donkey I would demand rhum from the Martinique ... That's the fuel I need to keep carrying the adorable Mistress on my donkey's back ....

BTW .... Where, roughgly, is the coffin you live in, located ?

Equidum

[Jadis]

Basically, I find it imposible to reconcile the "divin marquis' " destructive thougths, ( as per you motto under You signature ) and Your eminently feminine personality ... I think a Woman can be wicked, cruel, < although very seldom, I think >, but She is not, She is never destructive ! That's one more point of superiority versus Her male companion ! She bears life, She shapes humanity, She IS the future under construction .... SHE CANNOT BE DESTRUCTIVE !!!

Males are, only too often, and the World so far was built, by men, by systematically destroying what was existing before .... This will be the main change when women take over and rule this world .... They will not destroy men, for instance ! At least, I hope so ..... Perhaps, Equidum will no longer be considered as a man, but as a donkey, and everybody will applaud : Crudwell will write a poem, and You'll have a fine horse to go riding with Kenrug in Washington mountains ... :-) . When women take over, You will not destroy anything, You will just give everybody and everything a new place..... Nothing in common with Sade's destructive psychology !!!!

Hello dears!

I don't have time at the moment to answer this question fully (as I'd love to) - but I did want you to know I've not been ignoring you (or this topic) and I'll respond to this set of questions fully when I'm more able (sadly, real life has taken this time to settle on my shoulders and give me a good "what for").

I did want to make a response as it regards Sade's work: I didn't say that I agreed in his ideals, or even thought similarly, to his works ... but it was his writing (and the movie Quills) that started my curiosity in this vein (at the time I was 21 year old young mother, in a very closed off environment ... and that sort of expression was - at the very least - fascinating).

I hadn't realized that people were interested in such things - and as I read more (not just his writings: but from friends - BDSM sites - stories) I started to get a better idea of what I liked, what I wanted and what it really meant to me. I didn't agree with the dehumanization and brutality (I'm not a "violent" person by nature ... yes yes, corporal punishment and all that ... but you can ask: Mistress Sara or kenrug or my boi - and all will tell you I tend to go for the teasing, the charm, the subtle enchantments, sensuality - all in day to day things - as an overall ... and even for a sub: I respect them and admire them for what they offer to the Dominant and how precious their submission truly is) ... but I could appreciate the passion, the sexuality and intensity (remember my theme: you may not have to agree with me in order to respect what I am, and what I do ... I give that out to others as well).

As most people can agree: you don't just "become" Dominant or submissive ... those tendencies have always been there: whether they were fostered or not. But it was that door that gave me the opening (and the knowledge that others were interested as well - and that I wasn't alone) to explore and learn what there really was out there ...

... and I haven't quit learning since.

I admit I have "brutal" moments (though I doubt as most would think) ... and I have a temper to boot (I am a Scorpio after all hehe) - but if I were to choose flogging a sub over using one as a seat: I'd pick the seat (course, I might choose to flog him later ~_^) ... I enjoy walking through a mall and whispering illicit things to cause sexual arousal in the sub, and make him walk around - obviously - in front of everyone else suffering it ... while I just smirk along side. Perhaps have him carry my purse or my bags while I shop through lingerie. Having him feed me dinner or rub my back after a long day ... as much as any form of CBT or bondage. It's all a matter of balance, trust, comfort and energy for me.

Does that answer your questions? ;)

Nice stuff Equidum... I am not a good poet ... but its a nice book I could write.... about the poet, the donkey, the Mistress and a barrel of Rum....

... and -that- is a story I'd love to read :evillaugh Talk about a fractured fairtale -lol-

[equidum]

Bonjour,belle Maitresse

I spent quite some time to read again and again Your precious mail, with an ever renewed pleasure, savouring its many personal notes and pertinent remarks... I especially love this one :

As most people can agree: you don't just "become" Dominant or submissive ... those tendencies have always been there: whether they were fostered or not.

I totally agree! If You allow me to try and build on Your point, I'll say that we ALL belong either to the submissive or to the dominant party, probably 50% on each side, with, probably 10% in each category with strong/very strong pulsions, while the rest would be more or less depending on circumstances to discover themselves, and eventually become master or slave ! These circumstances may be Sade, or a friend, or some sexual kinks/desires which raise self-questioning about one's true, deep and hidden personality .... But, at the end of the day, if we knew how to handle the secret control-levers of our ego, we could all live, very happily, both masters/Mistresses and slaves, in some wondrous slave society ..... Not like the ante-bellum USA, as slavery wouldn't be based on race or colour, but on personal inclination ....

What a lovely dream-world ... But who knows ? Psychology/psychiatry will some day understand ALL of our psycho-mechanics, and then, belle Maitresse, Equidum will, at last, be legally allowed to be, if so You wish,

Your humble French slave

Equidum

[weallseve]

Pale in color, just like a vampire. Hmmm. I hope you are not too into blood play, it could get scary(especially if you glued on fake teeth).

[Jadis]

Pale in color, just like a vampire. Hmmm. I hope you are not too into blood play, it could get scary(especially if you glued on fake teeth).

Can't say that I haven't ~_^ But it's been very minor to date.

Things I have used are: daggers/knives/swords (generally dull as they're more decorative than working ... and for more edge play type work than actual blood letting), items to scrape and scratch (skewers work well, fork tongs are fun too - almost anything) ...

... but as for drawing blood, drinking blood - not so much.

Though I do bite (love biting!) - and my boi loves it when I bite ~_^

[Jadis]

Bonjour,belle Maitresse

I spent quite some time to read again and again Your precious mail, with an ever renewed pleasure, savouring its many personal notes and pertinent remarks... I especially love this one :

As most people can agree: you don't just "become" Dominant or submissive ... those tendencies have always been there: whether they were fostered or not.

I totally agree! If You allow me to try and build on Your point, I'll say that we ALL belong either to the submissive or to the dominant party, probably 50% on each side, with, probably 10% in each category with strong/very strong pulsions, while the rest would be more or less depending on circumstances to discover themselves, and eventually become master or slave ! These circumstances may be Sade, or a friend, or some sexual kinks/desires which raise self-questioning about one's true, deep and hidden personality .... But, at the end of the day, if we knew how to handle the secret control-levers of our ego, we could all live, very happily, both masters/Mistresses and slaves, in some wondrous slave society ..... Not like the ante-bellum USA, as slavery wouldn't be based on race or colour, but on personal inclination ....

What a lovely dream-world ... But who knows ? Psychology/psychiatry will some day understand ALL of our psycho-mechanics, and then, belle Maitresse, Equidum will, at last, be legally allowed to be, if so You wish,

Your humble French slave

Equidum

You're such a dear Equidum ... xox

I hope I've been answering your questions adequately ;)

Sadly, as for tyour dream world: I'm afraid society is a long way off. Most people still view FemDom (or BDSM in general) as an aberation of normal behavior, and often times deviant or "freakish" (or immoral, for that matter). Especially FemDom, as people are more willing to accept and understand male Domination as compared to a strong female figure.

Then again: my own personal idea of utopia would (probably) differ from someone else's ... even as compared from Mistress to Mistress or submissive to submissive. That is both the beauty and challenge of BDSM as no two people are alike, and the interests - levels - and concepts between pairs can very so much ... that even within the BDSM community there seems to be a notion of the "right" way to play and a "wrong" way.

I'm afraid there needs to be a great deal more understanding on all sides of the coin before we're going to see that perfect world you're so looking fo :)

But, as always, I enjoy and appreciate the comments (nothing like giving me a soap box to post from eh?) ... and as my dear Sara says:

... always above ... :eyebrows:

xoxo Jadis

[equidum]

Belle Maitresse,


Thank You for Your reply, Madame! I read and relished each of its words, first for what they meant, and also because You ciseled them to my attention, and this is, to me, a great favour and indicible honour... Thank You.

Did You answer my previous questions "adequately" ??? Well .....Your answers were very clear, explanatory and instructive .... But they certainly did not quench my thirst to read and know more and more about You ....!!!
A conundrum is "adequately" cleared only when no dark pl

[equidum]

Sorry, I mistyped ......

I said .....

A conundrum is "adequately" cleared only when ALL questions it raises are answered ... You are for me a mighty conundrum, Madame, and there are so many questions about You which still are unanswered so far ...... !!! C'est la vie !!!!

You are right, everyone has his own vision of utopia .... However, in a slave/Mistress relationship, there are some megatrends, which all Women in the world should easily agree upon, mainly, for instance, as regards house slavery : To-day women are still doing most of household chores.... Why are there so few of them who really try to revert the scenario, eventually thru some BDSM practice ??

My opinion is that Women are not ready, in their minds, to rule the world .... And THAT is the main obstacle on the path of more generalised FemDom ... And, having a husband or BF who does all chores at home is certainly not viewed as freaky or immoral ... Just funny, a little strange, but desirable for a majority of women !!!! And, I believe that many men are ready to enter this lifestyle .....Much more anyway than being the "helping husband" that so many Women require from their companions !

That could be a first step toward common utopia! And, of course,in that wondrous world I would be if so You wish

Your humble slave

Equidum

[Jadis]

Sorry, I mistyped ......

I said .....

A conundrum is "adequately" cleared only when ALL questions it raises are answered ... You are for me a mighty conundrum, Madame, and there are so many questions about You which still are unanswered so far ...... !!! C'est la vie !!!!

You are right, everyone has his own vision of utopia .... However, in a slave/Mistress relationship, there are some megatrends, which all Women in the world should easily agree upon, mainly, for instance, as regards house slavery : To-day women are still doing most of household chores.... Why are there so few of them who really try to revert the scenario, eventually thru some BDSM practice ??

My opinion is that Women are not ready, in their minds, to rule the world .... And THAT is the main obstacle on the path of more generalised FemDom ... And, having a husband or BF who does all chores at home is certainly not viewed as freaky or immoral ... Just funny, a little strange, but desirable for a majority of women !!!! And, I believe that many men are ready to enter this lifestyle .....Much more anyway than being the "helping husband" that so many Women require from their companions !

That could be a first step toward common utopia! And, of course,in that wondrous world I would be if so You wish

Your humble slave

Equidum

Equidum, you're more than welcome to come and clean the house for Me anytime! And I do have to admit: I miss that part about having a live in ... I felt like I had so much more freedom and relaxation - but, alas, it didn't work in the long run and I highly doubt I'll ever go that complete extent again (and I'm rather sure that my boi wouldn't want to share either ~_^).

You're right though: women, in general - are not raised or educated to know their own self worth ... and sometimes they have to go through a lot of trauma and pain to realize it. I almost believe that society, male oriented as it is, is afraid to allow women the superior role (in a generalized sense - obviously the males here are far from that lean).

On one hand they teach males that they need to respect and admire and take care of a female - and yet on the other hand you have images of the man being serviced, tended to and catered to by women (ie: the perfect "housewife" image for example). It's a complete confusion for the best of people and utter bullshit on the whole.

As always, it's been a pleasure xoxo

Jadis

[equidum]

Belle Maitresse,


I'm sure that being Your servant would make me happy, while, more importantly, You would , again, enjoy that unique feeeling of pleasure, freedom, absolute power provided by having someone at hand to do Your bidding, and more, at a snap of Your lovely fingers, to whom You don't have to say neither thanks nor please, that You don't need to congratulate whenever he is reaching excellence in his service, if only because excellence is the basic result he is required to achieve on a daily basis .... I once offered to a yahoo group to be that kind of servant, for a 5 year term, and, to prove my good faith, I proposed to pay a deposit of 100 000 USD, as a kind of "revert-indenture", which was to remain the property of the Mistress, should I resign before the end of the contracted period.... I was ready to pay for a private social insurance to cover all possible health problems. I didn't find an employer ..... Maybe those who were interested also had a "boi", unwilling to share ....!?

I'm sad to hear that You once had this type of full-time servant, but that it didn't work in the long run .... I've had the same experience, as a slave. I was three times a family-servant and slave, for my wife and kids, a few months each time .... And it failed thrice. I initially thought it was because my wife wanted me to be at the same time a slave and a husband, which is very very challenging.... Actually, it was because I was the one , the only one, who wanted to establish slavery.... My wife wanted to have a "helping husband"... I believe that it is impossible, in the long run, for the slave to establish his own slavery ... He needs help, the precious help of a Mistress/Master, or else, it flops !

Would You agree to tell me about the reason why Your slave didn't stay under Your adorable "Mistress-ship"? Of course, he certainly was blind to his happiness, maybe stupid on top of that, < at least as regards decison-making on his lifestyle >but why, how, did he make such a huge mistake ?

If You would prefer to write it on a more personal mode, please feel free to write to equidum@yahoo.fr , the address of

Your humble slave

Equidum

[Jadis]

Belle Maitresse,


I'm sure that being Your servant would make me happy, while, more importantly, You would , again, enjoy that unique feeeling of pleasure, freedom, absolute power provided by having someone at hand to do Your bidding, and more, at a snap of Your lovely fingers, to whom You don't have to say neither thanks nor please, that You don't need to congratulate whenever he is reaching excellence in his service, if only because excellence is the basic result he is required to achieve on a daily basis .... I once offered to a yahoo group to be that kind of servant, for a 5 year term, and, to prove my good faith, I proposed to pay a deposit of 100 000 USD, as a kind of "revert-indenture", which was to remain the property of the Mistress, should I resign before the end of the contracted period.... I was ready to pay for a private social insurance to cover all possible health problems. I didn't find an employer ..... Maybe those who were interested also had a "boi", unwilling to share ....!?

I'm sad to hear that You once had this type of full-time servant, but that it didn't work in the long run .... I've had the same experience, as a slave. I was three times a family-servant and slave, for my wife and kids, a few months each time .... And it failed thrice. I initially thought it was because my wife wanted me to be at the same time a slave and a husband, which is very very challenging.... Actually, it was because I was the one , the only one, who wanted to establish slavery.... My wife wanted to have a "helping husband"... I believe that it is impossible, in the long run, for the slave to establish his own slavery ... He needs help, the precious help of a Mistress/Master, or else, it flops !

Would You agree to tell me about the reason why Your slave didn't stay under Your adorable "Mistress-ship"? Of course, he certainly was blind to his happiness, maybe stupid on top of that, < at least as regards decison-making on his lifestyle >but why, how, did he make such a huge mistake ?

If You would prefer to write it on a more personal mode, please feel free to write to equidum@yahoo.fr , the address of

Your humble slave

Equidum

Though I do intend to write you more fully - I did want to clarify ... not just for yourself but anyone curious: that I'm happy to have only one man in my life - in both the capasity as (future) husband and slave. I'm of the sort that believes in a single committed relationship - giving my heart and attention to that person in exchange. While I agree that yes: having a "helping husband" and full time slave is a dicey attempt at best ... and often has its falling and draw backs ... I tend to be emotionally attatched to those I participate with, and (especially) to that depth and it is a natural adjustment for me. I have no problem doing what needs to be done, and when - all considered.

Don't get me wrong: I do play with others (and I used to train extensively for almost two years, both in real life and online) ... but with the consent of their Mistresses, and an agreement from my own boi. Most interactions are on a scene by scene basis only (or, in the case of training: within the limitations set there of and with the understanding that it would never become a live in situation) as family life and my sexual relations are devoted to him alone. I do not participate in sexual practices (specifically oral sex, penetration of any kind and most sexually toned physical contact, depending of course) with anyone save him (though we've both have adjusted it as necessary and desireable for the satisfaction of our experiences - and the level of trust we have between each other and those we are playing with).

And I don't have a problem saying the reason for the failure of that live in slave experience - as it was indeed the sharing of attentions that helped bring it about. But, more importantly the: betrayal, abuse and lying involved brought that situation to an end (and his eventual abandonment of me). I was young, and a young Mistress at that - without much in the way of experience: and he took severe advantage of the situation he was placed in (and put my - then - marriage, my family, finances, myself and my children at risk).

It's not something I'd repeat again ...

I have trained since that time ... and have had the pleasure of some very dedicated and wonderous slaves: male and female a like. I am proud to have known them and helped them along their journey. But for a day to day living situation it is my belief, and my preference, that I devote myself to one man only. It is why I haven't gone pro (though there were several offers and opportunities) because I prefer to develop the long standing relationship, develop the extended trust and personal connection of having someone intimately involved with me - and my every day life - to engage with, rather than a brief session here and there.

Of course, as mentioned, I will write you further :) but I do hope this clears up some initial confusion and questions ...

xoxo Jadis

[equidum]

Belle Maitresse,

Yes, indeed, it clears up possible confusion, and I do thank You for this <first...> fascinating reply .....

Will You please allow me a few comments.....:

O happy boi !!!!! O happy boi !!!! Do You think he clearly realizes how fortunate he is ??? Do You really realize, Madame, the magnitude, the immensity of Your offering ??? Do Yo think Your union is built on even terms, with him being mainly, if I understand correctly, a sex-slave, which is the best part of slavery for any slave, and You, granting him on top of that some sort of exclusivity contract, for both slavery and sexual intercourse. And a rigt of veto on any third party introduction !!!! O happy boi !!! You can torture him a lot, and still remain his creditor !!!! He can permanently strain to please You and do his seven possibles.... he will still, for ever, remain indebted, heavily indebted, to You, belle Maitresse ! O happy boi !!!!

Now, as regards the "failure" of Your live in full slave experience .... Maybe I don't understand, but it seems to me that there is no direct relation between those betrayal, lying, abuse .... and the fact that in was in a 24/7 total slavery, or am I wrong ? Betray, lye and abuse was in that man's nature, and not a consequence of his servitude ? He would have betrayed you even as a "regular" BF, even, as a master, if it were at all possible to make You a slave < O sacrilege !...>.

Now I have a secret wish, for You, for Boi, and for the sake of Women power and happiness : Maybe one day, Your love will subside, sightly, slowly, but clearly..... Then, then why wouldn't You try to make him a live in 24/7 total slave ? You love him too much to-day, it seems, to try and impose him that form of servitude, which would please You a lot though !!! But one day... why not ? And I think that Boi might be more receptive than You seem to believe, to this added slavery .... And, last but not least, it would sound quite normal to see a dominant Lady like You, enjoy the perks of a full time complete slave to do Her bidding and chores! Otherwise, I would worry for the future of feminine supremacy .....!!!!

But whatever happens in the long or short run, please rest assured I'll always be and remain

Your humble slave


Equidum

[Jadis]

Belle Maitresse,

Yes, indeed, it clears up possible confusion, and I do thank You for this <first...> fascinating reply .....

Will You please allow me a few comments.....:

O happy boi !!!!! O happy boi !!!! Do You think he clearly realizes how fortunate he is ??? Do You really realize, Madame, the magnitude, the immensity of Your offering ??? Do Yo think Your union is built on even terms, with him being mainly, if I understand correctly, a sex-slave, which is the best part of slavery for any slave, and You, granting him on top of that some sort of exclusivity contract, for both slavery and sexual intercourse. And a rigt of veto on any third party introduction !!!! O happy boi !!! You can torture him a lot, and still remain his creditor !!!! He can permanently strain to please You and do his seven possibles.... he will still, for ever, remain indebted, heavily indebted, to You, belle Maitresse ! O happy boi !!!!

Now, as regards the "failure" of Your live in full slave experience .... Maybe I don't understand, but it seems to me that there is no direct relation between those betrayal, lying, abuse .... and the fact that in was in a 24/7 total slavery, or am I wrong ? Betray, lye and abuse was in that man's nature, and not a consequence of his servitude ? He would have betrayed you even as a "regular" BF, even, as a master, if it were at all possible to make You a slave < O sacrilege !...>.

Now I have a secret wish, for You, for Boi, and for the sake of Women power and happiness : Maybe one day, Your love will subside, sightly, slowly, but clearly..... Then, then why wouldn't You try to make him a live in 24/7 total slave ? You love him too much to-day, it seems, to try and impose him that form of servitude, which would please You a lot though !!! But one day... why not ? And I think that Boi might be more receptive than You seem to believe, to this added slavery .... And, last but not least, it would sound quite normal to see a dominant Lady like You, enjoy the perks of a full time complete slave to do Her bidding and chores! Otherwise, I would worry for the future of feminine supremacy .....!!!!

But whatever happens in the long or short run, please rest assured I'll always be and remain

Your humble slave


Equidum

I'm not ignoring this dear - just had FAR too much on my plate right now for much time to post: hopefully after the lovely session tonight with Sara, kenrug and my boi ... I'll feel in a far better frame to post. But I shall get back with you :)

[equidum]

Oh, to be in Seattle, to-night, and share
The "horrible" fate of Kenrug and boi,
Be a seat for JADIS, and Sara, and dare
Carry them home at dawn, as a good ponyboy

Your humble french slave

Equidum

[Heckron]

Oh, to be in Seattle, to-night, and share
The "horrible" fate of Kenrug and boi,
Be a seat for JADIS, and Sara, and dare
Carry them home at dawn, as a good ponyboy

Your humble french slave

Equidum

You know Lady Jadis, if your guy ever registers here, his login name is going to have to be "boi" because that's what everyone knows him as! :D