Just a quick true story about the relationship I share with my someone. She is and has always been a very open, honest and caring person who is very easy to talk to and very understanding. A little over a year ago, she text me asking if she could borrow some money, to which I said of course. I spoke with her a bit later and sh said she needed $1700 which I agreed to and I told her I wanted to talk to her about something and we met at her house. Nervous and shaking, I told her of my fantasies to be a financial money slave and would be honored to give her the money. I asked her if she would be ok with me giving her a $200 tribute/payment every other week which I had already been putting aside from my paycheck. I also told her I would love to budget and be frugal( no Starbucks, eating out, etc) and always make my wallet available for her inspection so she could take what she wanted, when she wanted. She, being the person she is, seemed taken aback by what I had just told her, but didn't make me feel like a complete idiot. She said she thought I was going to ask her for a sexual favor and then told me she had to think about it. I assured her there was nothing sexual about my request only that I have a need to sacrifice and suffer financially as a slave and would like her to be the beneficiary of this extra money. A few days later we met and she said we could try it. I was so excited and immediately asked her if she wanted to look through my wallet, which she relunctently did, then asked if it was ok if she took $40 which of course I said yes ( not how it went in my fantasies, but it was a start). I then asked her if I could go to the bank and get her $200 payment since I just got paid and she said yes and I later paid her. This went on for a couple months, she asked for money a handful of times and I gave her payments on my pay days which she was always thankful for. At some point I decided it wasn't working out and told her we should stop. She agreed and told me she was so relieved for it to be over with. Looking back, I realize how selfish I was to try and change her attitude, wishing she didn't say thank you but good job or your welcome or tell me how nice it was to relax on her day off, knowing I was working overtime to make my payment to her. Wishing she would take money from my wallet telling me how much she loves taking money from my wallet to buy all the things I now refrain from and go without. Telling me to try and tighten up on my budget and save more for her because she wants a new outfit, pair of shoes or pedicure. We still have a great relationship and she sometimes allows me to bring her Starbucks or lunch and in fact I regularly check my text messages hoping she lets me bring her something or run an errand for her or loan her money. It really makes my day anytime she gives me an opportunity to show her my appreciation to her. In fact I recently gave her several hundred dollars for her birthday and Christmas that I had saved which she allows me to give her, making me very happy. Now my biggest regret is how selfish I was not realizing how lucky I was that she was so understanding to me and my needs. If I ever get the nerve to apologize for my selfish thoughts and behavior and she is gracious enough to accept and again allow me to tribute her, I would never push my selfish needs. I will selflessly work overtime and refrain from unnecessary purchases making daily sacrifices of myself, so I can give her more solely for her happiness and comfort, without "bragging" about it. My happiness in regard to financial domination will purely be about her happiness and ability to live a life just easier, money wise than others.